Jaime's Page

Dull vague colors are all that reside
life slowly draining from these faded blue eyes
I was there for so long, but was in disguise
so I'd sit there alone, tears fall from my eyes
No hopes, no dreams, but still strong ambition to live
i'd given so much, but there was nothing left to give.

my heart would break, through another sleepless night
as id fight the temptation with all of my might.
Big hand strikes two and still no sign,
it's ok, it's still early, it's gonna be fine
trying to feed positive words through my mind,
thoughts start running, building my heart pace to a high

clock strikes 3 and thoughts start to fade
my eyes get heavier, now numb to the pain
its day 3, one more night of this game.
my mind wont let up, like a hard summers rain
ive endured this too long, trying to right the wrongs
constantly wondering if i'm better off gone

i retire my thoughts just for the night
open my eyes, feeling brought back to life
leave the neighborhood start of a normal day
knives in my gut, i cant seem to find a way
to make sense of the reasons i dont want to stay
maybe this is it, maybe today is the day?

The long day is over, with only hours to relax
the feeling wont leave, my heart feels attacked
back to the homefront, so good to be home
stumble upon a dwelling that should be alone
rise to my feet to meet an unfamiliar face
eyes start to tear, my heart starts to race

uncontrolable pain deep down in my core
this is the reason i was looking for
eyes become blurred, scenes turn to grey
All I can say,it happens that way,
giving your soul, only to be betrayed
this was the reason i needed to break away

after 4 years some things can get tough
every threat of leaving, he was calling my bluff
from number one to number two in the blink of an eye
i still cant remember if i even said goodbye
bright vibrant colors are now what reside
life slowly restored into these faded blue eyes...